One day I’m going to give up and leave
I’m so sick and tired of taking all this fucking crap! I feel so stuck and I’m with someone who makes me feel like a piece of crap a lot of the times.
Anytime he’s had a bad day or is in a bad mood he takes it out on me. ALWAYS! My mood always has to be according to his. And I am so sick of it!
I grew up my whole life being emotionally unstable and for the first time I thought things could change but they can’t. I am depressed and always have been and it feels like I always will be.
At night I get insomnia, because of all the things that eat me alive inside my head, during the day I sleep the day away because in all reality….. if I was given the choice I would choose death.
He has a daughter who he has not fought to have, who he wants but is to scared to fight, he is a coward and he knows it…….not having her eats him up everyday and any chance he gets he uses that anger and takes it out on the most vulnerable person around him. me. Because it’s so much easier to drag me down with him then to fight for her!
I starting to really rethink all of this because being with someone who has a child is hard enough but being with someone who got the child take away from them is a thousand times harder.
I just hope my period comes this month. If not I’ll die. ever since I let him in all I ever do is cry and im sick of it.